When tired mommy wakes up....

I am greeted by a cutesie morning reply to my note, the night before.



The adorable author.


Love this moody girl to bits! :)

Getting my groove back

I AM DRINKING AGAIN! :) Oh yes....I say this, on a happy note.

"Amber droplets of delightful intoxication...
balancing a single mom's equilibrium. " (ahhh, lovely)

I bet that sounds pretty queer doesn't it? But if you've been a bar-hopping night creature person like myself, who guzzles down more than 5 bottles without counting AND asphyxiates her lungs 1 pack of cigs by day, then another at night.... then I am sure you know how THIS feels! After the past 2 months of recuperating from an intense acid reflux doctor advised me with certain diet no-nos like spicy & fatty foods, coffee, smoking, alcohol (big NOOO). I took the meds, ate well. My 2 months felt cleansingly pure...and healthy. It did me good especially that it silenced my acid-vomiting bouts , which was bothersome to the point I excused myself from a big presentation to puke out some acid. (ewww) It was not cute at all.

So fast forward to now, I'm back. Better and more "normal". I slowly eased into my drinking 3 wks ago at a really chill place called mogwai, the ambience was enough to urge me back to the this beer spin. So i took it slow and drank 3 bottles. The conversation was great, the intoxication buzzed my head mighty fine. And I have had a few swigs a few times a week since then. 

I love the feeling it gives me. It's an overall sense of balance I urgently needed. It's not that I wasn't happy at home with Nina, but we are never just parents. We are all individuals who need to "breathe" sometimes and relax. Our previous selves which should never be forgotten. 

My alcoholic groove is a part of who I really am. This is a part of me that I cannot part with easily. Back to the days of my swingin' single life, where it took me through my lowest of lows and greatest highs. The experience of course, paired with the company of chosen friends (or uhm BFs), amped with intriguing conversation and lots and lots of laughable moments (and ok, a sprinkle of wreckless behavior) that I will never regret...but rather cherish forever.

This golden drip of tipsiness will remain in my system for eternity. The aftermath of relaxing is enough to give me more vigor and enthusiasm to do what needs doing... and take care of what's important in life. Yep, our children.

KAMPAI!
Cheers!  :)
TAGAY!

THINKING Green : Paper journals

I love scribbling on paper. And these latter years, I've taken to sketching as a breather. It seems all my love of these things have rubbed off on Jeanina.

Every night now, she hounds me for paper.

So an idea struck me, I recycled all the huge, heavy, unused scrapbooks (gifted to me) and made them into hand-made paper journals for nina and me. This recycling bit has been bugging me nowadays, especially upon stumbling upon this great helpful DIY site that fills up my braincells - especially when free time abound in my freelance life, nowadays.

Now the finished product. Re-used an old gift ribbon to bind the pages.

Still with blank covers, but just experimented with different methods of binding for the 2 others. 

As for Jeanina's cover design, she has her own kiddie scribbles on it now. She yelped at the sight of the 2 journals (ribboned and handsewn) I made purposely for her.

Somehow, this is how one would look like complete. This one is mine. :) 

Awaiting my pen's menacing ideas, brilliant storyline or awkward doodles, perhaps? :)